16 more days

Well, 15 after today... only 15 more work days until we move back to Indiana.  It is so surreal that I will not be working here and we won't be living here.  We have talked about it so much in the last month or two and now it is really happening.  I am so excited to be back close to family especially since we will make it back before Christmas.  It will be great to get to see everyone and celebrate.  I am really looking forward to hopefully being able to see my friends more often even though they are mostly in Indy and we will be in NW IN - it is only a couple hour drive so hopefully we'll be able to make it work :-)  I'm also really excited to start house hunting - it will really feel like putting down roots and I'm very happy about that.  It is pretty crazy to me that we will probably be in our very own house by my birthday - baby boy can have his first birthday party in his own house... the level of adulting that we are approaching is really extreme. :-)

Ok - enough for now.

later

pictures and a life update

First the update - B and baby boy and I are moving back to the midwest!  A couple of months ago I found a posting for an ED clinical pharmacist position in NW Indiana and I applied and asked to discuss it with the clinical manager.  It sounded like something I would be interested in so we had a phone interview and then they asked me to come onsite.  So about 3.5 weeks ago I was there for an interview and earlier this week they called and offered me a job and I accepted the position :-)

B and I have about 4 weeks until we will be moving back.  His parents will be out to help us and we have a ton of packing to do but we are really excited to be heading home.  It has been a really good experience out here in MA but we are both just ready to put down roots and we knew that wouldn't be here so far away from our families.

So that is our exciting news -- now for a few pictures :-)

not my best mom weekend

So Mr. Buddy Boy has been challenging me this weekend. B worked 8-8 both days which means it was the mom show all day both days... This would not be an issue except Buddy was grumpy. I mean really grumpy. He wanted me to hold him but also kept pushing away from me. If I put him down to play he would crawl toward me whining. This is all well and good when it lasts for 20 minutes before a nap but this was basically all day with a few sweet fun moments thrown in to keep me partially sane. I try really hard to keep smiling and trying to make him happy because I just feel so lucky to have these days with him but I wish he would make it a little easier sometimes. It seems like every time we have a weekend with just the two of us he has a state of continuous meltdown. He really is teaching me patience like I have never needed to know before. It is amazing to me how I can be so full of love for him and so frustrated with him at the exact same moment. 

I have been reflecting recently because a question I get a lot when the baby comes up is "is he a happy baby?" I think this is a strange question, especially for a first time mom... I mean, he doesn't seem depressed... But I have no idea - he's my only baby. I don't know anything else. But it makes me wonder, is he happy? Being a parent is such a crazy experience and most of the time I feel like B and I are just totally making things up as we go along. Buddy boy laughs a lot when he's in a good mood but if he isn't there is just almost nothing we can do to make him happy. He has very strong emotions :-) and that is what I usually tell people when they ask - is he happy? Sometimes... And sometimes he isn't and either way he lets you know. 

Ok that's all for now. Buddy went to bed tonight at 6:45 and he's in a onsie rather than pajamas... Mom of the year folks.

Later.