mantra reclaimed

Reading through some old blog posts and came across what I, at the time, dubbed to be my mantra -- I think I have changed/grown throughout the past year and I think my alteration of said mantra would be this: I am capable, I am growing, I will work to see each day as an opportunity rather than an obstacle

I have blogged before about how I feel like my whole life I've been waiting on the next thing and even though I am getting to a point in my life where I've gone through many of the these landmark things I still find myself seeing this year as an obstacle to my future happiness, a hill that I just have to get over to get to the fun part on the other side -- now, in some ways this is true since I did kind of have to put my life on hold to move here and complete my training but at the same time, I have felt recently that I am just unhappy and I think it stems from the fact that I go to work everyday thinking about what I "have" to do and not what I have the opportunity to do.

Now, those of you who know me may be thinking that I've had a stroke or been abducted by aliens or something of that nature but I haven't :-)  Also, I'm not saying that I'm suddenly going to become ecstatic about living away from all my friends/family and B but I just feel like I have to put an end to this cycle of my going into work Monday with a negative opinion of things that only gets worse as the week wears on.  And maybe some of this stems from the fact that tomorrow will be day 1 of 18 and I just don't think I can face 18 days of being angry with my life... and maybe I am trying to have a more positive outlook because B is coming in a couple of days and I want to be happy while he's here... I don't know, but I do know that I want to try to just be content for the next 244 days.  And I want to be productive.

On that note, I'll go try to get my handout ready for my topic discussion tomorrow... wah wah...

Happy Halloween Week kiddies :-)