my recent dreams (warning: the following contains material not suitable for some - reader discretion is advised)

Now, some of you may have heard me speak of these on occasion, but seriously -- I have been having THE weirdest dreams in the past couple of weeks... although some of these are actually a bit disturbing, hopefully you may find some humor in them... maybe you won't... they are kind of creepy... I am trying to just laugh about them and not diagnose myself with any mental illness.

1. The one where I slice throats -- pretty much just like it sounds... in some sort of crazed life or death situation I am forced to slice the throats of random strangers who will surely kill me if I don't

2. The one where I kick people out of the back of a truck -- really it is like an empty ambulance or what I envision an ambulance would look like if it were empty... anyway, again in a crazy life or death manor I am necessitated to kick random strangers out of the back of the "ambulance" by prying them off the walls and then pushing/booting them out the doors... I wake up when I realize I don't know how to get the drivers kicked out the back...

3. The one where the "match" takes place in a giant showcase room/gymnasium as opposed to via email -- right... so some sadist stands at the front of this big freaking room where all the candidates presumably from the whole country are gathered and this sick lady announces each program and starts at the top of their rank list and goes through it until she gets to an available candidate... in "dream match" the odds of matching were considerably lower even than in real life and accordingly by about halfway through the process there were crying candidates everywhere as they realized that they didn't make it to the tops of the lists of places they interviewed... this dream was so improbable that I woke up feeling ridiculous even for me.

Yeah... officially my stress level has taken the last peaceful thing that I had going for me... I now wake up roughly 3-4 times a night from weird dreams only some of which I can remember beyond the feeling of overwhelming dread that I wake up with.  Not cool brain, not cool.

alright folks... I'm gonna go try and be productive for a few minutes and then maybe take a chance with my sleep cycle.

goodnight