hallelujah it's the weekend

I finished another 12 day stretch and this one was particularly difficult for me.  I think it was because the first week I was stressed about my grand rounds and then I worked the weekend and then I got all my mistakes since July handed to me in a nice yellow envelope and all the while I'm trying to be a good clinical pharmacist and follow all of my patients' various problems and know everything about them all the time.  I mean, don't get me wrong, I love what I'm doing, but by Friday I was so glad to get the hell out of there I could have screamed.  Fortunately we had an event to attend at my university where students can come and talk with us about our residency program and ask questions etc... so we left around 11am and then I got to go home straight afterward.  B came home on Thursday and then left today to head home for his next rotation.  I know he'll be much happier there than he was in Linton but I'm a little sad that he won't be here for long weekends anymore.

I went to dinner with my sister and her friend tonight and we had, quite possibly, the dingy-est waitress to ever grace the presence of the Olive Garden.  She mumbled, she got my drink order confused at first and then even after I corrected her and she brought me the right thing (a mango martini) she insisted on calling it a margarita.  In addition she was generally just annoying as she kept coming and asking us how we were doing... So, after the actual dinner was over she asks if we want any boxes and we say we just need one.  My sister was not going to take her food home and her friend and I both got seafood alfredo and I was giving mine to the friend to take home.  So then we order dessert and she brings it out and asks again if we need boxes, and I say again, just one.  She then starts to walk away but comes back and says, "so are you just going to combine those two then?" pointing to our two dinners.  I pause for a moment and then say, "yes, yes she is taking it all".  Then she leaves.  I then turn to my sister and she starts laughing... I mean, why else would I only want one box?  Am I going to magic it into two? I mean, the thing is, she really wasn't that bad but she was so ditzy!  And then of course our bills were completely wrong... so wrong we couldn't even trade them to fix things... and then she couldn't fix them... or get them to print... or figure out how to talk to us without apologizing so much that I wanted to shake her and tell her to get over it.  I wasn't mad about anything... I was having an enjoyable dinner with my sister and her friend... yes the girl was annoying but she was mostly annoying because she seemed to know she was annoying and felt the need to apologize for it... that's like a dog apologizing for slobbering or a cat apologizing for getting underfoot... they might do it but then they will just go right back to slobbering or getting underfoot... as such, this girl kept being ditzy and apologetic. Still, it was a nice dinner and we had a lot of laughs.

Now I'm just chilling at home and watching The Big Bang Theory reruns... I love this show.  It is hilarious.  Even better show though - I watched the season premiere of Grey's Anatomy today and I am both excited and upset about how this season may go... I have high hopes but I'm nervous that I'll be disappointed.  I think Meredith and Derek are going to stay together but they have certainly hit a rough patch and I just really love them when they are happy. I heard that the actors want this to be the last season and as I was watching reruns over the past couple months I realized how much they have aged since the early episodes.  It is really interesting.  I want to get all the seasons on dvd at some point.

Ok, now I'm rambling... I wanted to blog a bit about my actual resident life but honestly I don't really want to talk about it at this point.  I really just want to think about -- nothing.  Until tomorrow at least. Then I might start to think about smart things again.

goodnight happy people.

enjoying a lazy weekend

This week was pretty nice.  Very busy but overall nice.  I had Monday off because of the Labor Day holiday which was fabulous and then I started on my Burn rotation on Tuesday.  I would really like to be better at looking up patients in a more time efficient manner.  I am getting to work around 6-6:30am in order to be ready for rounding by 8-8:30 and we only have like 10 patients.  Granted a couple are super complicated patients but still.  It seems like I miss things everyday that I should have looked up.  And then due to the nature of the rotation and my other projects I end up not leaving until 5-6pm... that makes for some long days and one very sleepy Nikita.  Nevertheless I am learning a lot and I assume I will get better at the whole looking up patients thing.  I'm certainly going to try.

So next week is like the big scary week of September for me.  I have grand rounds final practice run through Monday at noon, real grand rounds presentation Tuesday at noon, my MUE presentation Wednesday morning at 7am, a meeting with the ACPE people at my alma mater Thursday at 9am, the SO pager Friday all day, and then I have to work the weekend. FML. Actually none of it should be too bad except I'm pretty nervous about the grand rounds presentation and I don't really like working the weekends because it can either be boring or stressful or both but rarely anything in between.  Anyway, I'm sure it will all be fine... as Ingrid Michaelson says, "all we can do is keep breathing".  That is sort of my mantra for the year I think.  All I can do is keep breathing.  Sometimes when I feel myself getting super stressed out I take a couple minutes to just breathe and try not to think and sometimes that helps.

Now I think I'll go back to doing nothing.  B and I would like to not waste today though so perhaps I'll think of something creative for us to do this afternoon so we don't feel so lame. :-)

Happy weekend everyone!